~:+:flying like an angel:+:~

ikaw na ata ang pinakaworst na tao nakilalala ko….
why? because ur the worst at un lang nafeel ko…
hindi ko lang alam kung tao ka ba? o ewan…
bakit kaya laki ng HATRED nandyan sa puso mo?
bakit parang puro GALIT..PAMIMINTAS…NEGATIVE COMMENTS..na lang lumalabas sa bibig mo?
ewan…d ko alam kung bakit ka ganyan…
yeah….pikon ako…ang dali ko mairita…signs yan na may pakiramdam din ako
hindi tulad mo…manhid…ewan…sabi mo nga "malaki lang tolerance" mo sa mga
bagay na ganito…well…kaya siguro ganyan ugali mo…
it pissed me everytime nagcocomment ka ng "ang kokorny ng mga YM status ng mga tao puro love".…."ganito at ganyan ang mga babae…."
nakakairita lang if ginigeneralized mo…wag mong lahatin…
at ano sinasabi mo na YOU RESPECT WOMEN??? sa mga sinasabi mo ewan ko lang
d ko makita ang respect….
at sabi mo "ur family builds up ur character"...siguro nga ganyan ka pinalaki…
and u pity me for being the only child of the family??? dont be im okey marami akong cousins na ka-age ko…im okey for being the only child…i pity you for being like that….
yeah…siguro d pa nga kita ganun kakilala…pero sa short time na we’ve been talking nakilala na kita at enough na un para malaman ko kung sino ka…i just cant believe na may taong ganito..grabe…im trying to ride on sa mga pikonan..asaran…whatever you call it..pero hindi eh…tindi mo….grabe…d ko carry mga ganyan…i wonder lang talaga kung bakit ganyan ka…and don’t make it a reason na dyan ka nakatira…dahil sa environment???…d yan valid…nasa sau yan if sumabay ka…tsk tsk tsk…hay nako…ewan…
inisip ko nga…kawawa maging gf mo kung ganyan paniniwala mo sa mga babae…

pero part of me saying siguro may soft part ka din…ewan ko na lang…sana meron nga…sana…

enough of this…nilabas ko lang init ng ulo ko…
harrrrr…you just offended me…on behalf of us women na pinagsasabihan mong ganyan….
you’re so mean to us…

lastly, dba may sister ka? sana naisip mo bago ka magbitaw ng mga salita na ganun sana naisip mo, ano kaya kung sister mo pinagsabihan ng ganyan???

…….na masayang masaya ako ngayon kasi after all this time…after the silent….eto nakausap kita ulit..thank you…salamat kasi nakinig ka sa mga sinasabi ko…salamat sa mga tanong at sagot…through those nalaman natin ang mga bagay na gusto natin malaman ….at least ngayon may peace of mind na ako and maybe ikaw din…panatag na loob ko na we are okey…okey in the sense na pwede na kita makakausap na walang halong takot…ilang…at lungkot….salamat sa lahat ng sinabi mo sa akin…basta THANK YOU!!!!

…..na dito lang ako support lang ako all the way….FULL SUPPORT to kala mo…. hehehe….hinahangad ko kaligayahan mo ‘coz u deserve to be happy….

….na nagpapasalamat ako ng sobra today. (^_~)

Dear <name>,

It is again dark outside. I am sitting in my room in front of the
monitor, with the keyboard in front of me. Again waiting to see your
nickname on the screen and have a nice chat with so many feelings in
each word. I feel you so near and so distant in the same moment. Every
day I find something new in you, something that makes me feel different
but sure in one thing - you are not only my friend, you are something
more, something deeper. Do you feel the same?

I am not sure in your feelings anymore. Not sure of what I am for you
in fact? Am I just another nickname in your list or I am something
special as you are for me. I am trying to find the answer by myself,
but as I am trying I am getting scared of the answer I may find behind
all this. I am not the one you wanted … or it is you who have
changed? I know that I am not the one to blame you, nor the one to want
something special, because you are the second one in my heart and you
know that I can not change this even if I love you more than I want to.
I know that I am the one that makes the thing so complicated, but you
said that you are ready for this and you want me after all. Is it still
that way?

I remember the day when I decided that I couldn’t hide my feeling from
you anymore. I wrote you an SMS message and told you what I feel. You
were so happy and motivated about the future and so many things were so
beautiful and unreal in our relationship that I began thinking that I
have found the real love. The love that must be kept and need all my
loving. But after some time I began feeling forgotten, unwanted and
left behind. Everything was important, but me. Everyone was near you,
except me. I wanted to have you near, to feel you as a friend and even
like a lover, to share and be there, but it seemed so hard for you to
give me these things. I told you so many times that I need them.

After all these days and nights I know that I found a friend, but I am
not sure if it is the real love. But I know that I have found my first
true love and I will keep it that way. I also know that I will give you
all the love you need, or at least all the love you want me to give
you. I know that I will love you in a way I cannot show and cannot
explain to you. I just want to be loved by you, at least as a friend.
Let me know if you have changed you opinion about us. Let me know what
has changed or if I am the one who does not understand things. I love
you, my only <name>! I love you as a friend and as a lover.

Love always,

<name>

Lagi natin sinasabi dati
Na ang pagmamahalan natin walang katapusan
Ang sabi mo sa akin walang pwedeng makapaghiwalay sa atin, na tayo ay magtatagal habang buhay
Alam ko ika’y totoo ngunit nasan na ang mga pangako….
Pangako na hanggang ngayon aking inaasam

Sa haba ng panahon
Lagi ko pa rin tinatanong kung bakit ba inibig kita
Bakit ba hindi ko magawang iwasan ang lahat
Kahit nasasaktan ako sa katutuhan na…
Ngayon ang puso mo’y mayroong umaangkin

Dapat ko bang pigilan itong naramdaman kong ito?
Kahit lagi tayo nagkikita….
Ayaw ko ng umaasa sa pag-ibig na ito
Wag na tayong umasa
Masasaktan lamang tayo…
Ang mga pangarap natin ay isa isa ng naglaho
Hinding hindi na mangyayari habang sa atin ay may nagmamay-ari

Hanggang ngayon….
Hindi ko pa rin kaya ang wala ka….
Hindi ko kayang mag-isa…
Nasasaktan ko lang mga tao sa paligid ko dahil sa pagmamahal na to…
Tulungan mo akong malimot ka
Pagkat di na dapat pang ibigin ka